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Part 3  
09:10pm 13/01/2008
 
 
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PART 3


Gerard sat in the middle of Frankie’s bed still clutching the pillow.
The room was dark, and the only light was the light from the street lamp outside.
He had never told anyone that this was his best friend's house, that this was the love of his life’s house. All the story’s that were told to him about “Frankie” the boy, ripped through him every time someone uttered the words to him.
He still loved him, he came to the conclusion that he always would.
The clock had struck 11 some time ago, and he was still sitting in the middle of the bed. Holding the pillow. Every few minutes he would swear he heard his name uttered close to him, or feel someone touching him.
His lips tingled as if someone were pressing their lips to them.
He should be afraid that there was something wrong, that something was off.
Or maybe he had finally gone insane being faced with this house, this room.
But when he felt it he only closed his eyes and savored it.
He was becoming convinced that Frankie was in there with him.
If he told anyone that, they would tell him he was insane, he didn’t mind, he wanted to be near Frankie more than anything in the world.
“I miss you.” Gerard said whispering to the empty room.
The clock began to strike midnight. Flooding the house with the sound.

Frankie jumped when the clock began to chime. Why did it frighten him? He was used to that stupid clock that seemed to never die.
He was sitting next to Gerard, he gently let his hand slip through his hair, he seemed to feel it but it wasn’t bothering him. It was more like he wanted to feel it. Like he needed it.
Gerard whispered that he missed him, a tear slipped down his cheek.
Frankie missed him so much too. The chimes were ringing so he waited and when the last one sounded and the clock quieted.
“I miss you too.” He said through tears because he wanted to talk to him so badly, to touch him and be touched back.

Gerard’s eyes registered a shocked expression.
“Frankie?” He said
“I love you gee.” Frankie said
Gerard turned slowly to face the direction of the voice and the direction of what felt like fingers trailing through his hair.
Green eyes and a beautiful smile that were surrounded with tear stained cheeks greeted him.
“Holy shit! Frankie!” Gerard said as he wrapped his arms around the very shocked boy that sat beside him.
“You see me, you can hear me, and you’re hugging me!” Frankie said.
“Yes.” Gerard said laughing out loud.
Not sure what to do Gerard pulled Frankie into his lap touching his face, running his hand through his hair and back down his cheeks. Tracing his lips with his fingers.
He crashed his lips into Frankie’s kissing him like he had longed to for so very long, letting his tongue explore all the places it missed so much.
They clung to each other not knowing why exactly they could but not caring in the slightest.
“I missed you so much, I love you so much.” Gerard whispered
“ I do too.” Frankie said pulling him back into a kiss.
His hand slid down to his pants sliding under the waistband unbuttoning them. He shifted a little but didn’t leave Gerard’s lap.
His hand gripped the flesh underneath and he began to slowly stroke him.
“Fffrankie, oh , ffrank, this isn’t rright. What are you doing?” Gerard was trying hard to pull away but Frankie held him close.
“Baby, I can feel you, I miss you, I don’t know how long this will last, I don’t even know why I’m here, why I’m real, how I can feel you but I do, and I want to be with you while I can, I want to feel you, I want to make love to you, we never made love, we never had the chance, please. Just be with me, just be mine, for me, just love me.” He said holding Gerard’s eyes with his. He continued pleading in silence.
Gerard wanted this more than he could explain but he wanted Frankie back he wanted to keep him, but he wasn’t sure he would be able to, while he was letting all the questions envelope him, Frankie’s other hand began to trail along his skin. He continued to stroke him, feeling Gerard’s heart speed up and he was panting under him.

“Please, gee, just let me be with you.” Frankie said in a whisper.
He kissed his lips again hoping it would encourage gee to stop asking questions. He slipped himself off of the warmth of his lap and slid his pants from his legs taking in the site of him he sighed pulling him closer. His hand slid along his smooth skin, gripping him again he stroked harder than before, forcing a moan from Gerard’s lips. Gerard lay back on the bed watching him as he ran one hand along his chest. Gerard’s hand was stroking Frankie’s hair and face and lips again. Frankie softly slid his hand into Gerard’s and tugged it down to his own hardness.
He climbed on top of him in a tangle of sweat and kisses he breathing him in. His scent enveloped him. Smiling he began to caress him sliding his finger into his entrance he felt him tremble even more underneath him. Lowering himself he took him into his mouth taking all he could he continued to finger him. He was squirming in front of him.
“Frankie, oh Frankie.” He moaned

He continued to lick and he made the entrance as wet as he could with his mouth, he rose up slowly entering him. It was his first time having real sex and it shocked him a little, the intense heat of it filling him with pleasure. He began slowly and though he seemed to be in pain for a min he asked him to continue faster and faster. He did, leaning down to connect their lips as he shoved himself in and out tongues reselling as he took him.

Pleasure contorted both their faces at once, and they came together.
Frank wrapped his arms around the man he loves more than himself.
“Thank you, I love you so much.” He said brushing his lips up against Gerard’s ear.
Gerard gripped him in his arms,
“Thank me? Thank you, baby, I missed you so much. I have never felt anything like that in my life. Please don’t leave me, I don’t think I can be here if you go agin.” He said staring deep into his eyes. Frankie snuggled as close to him as he could.
“I don’t want to, I want to stay here with you forever. But I don’t think I can.”
They held each other not letting go even to shift or get comfortable. Gerard’s eyes grew heavy and he fought it with all him might burying his nose into Frankie’s hair. Not wanting sleep to take him away. But sleep won against his desperate fight. Frankie smiled,
“You sleep baby, you just sleep, and I’ll watch you as you do.” He said


“You, how are you here? A voice boomed interrupting Gerard’s sleep.
He rubbed his eyes and sat up, Frankie still lay next to him. Moonlight shown through the window beside them.
“It was you! You did this! You are the reason he has been trapped here, It was you that took him away from me!” Gerard’s voice rose with his anger.
Frankie sat up then his mouth gaping open when he saw the figure that was glaring at him, the same that Gerard’s yelling was aimed at.
“Dad?” he said.
His dads face was a mask of shock as he took in the site of his son. His harsh voice softened,
“Frankie, I’m so sorry, I was stupid and angry and I hate myself for what I did, I would trade places with you if I could. I wish I could make this right.” He said tears streaming down his tired cheeks. He wrapped his arms around his son. sobbing into his neck.
“I forgive you, I always forgave you.” Frank said.
“I would trade if I could.” The man said and pulling his the ghost of a son closer to his shuddering body, his tears landing in his boy’s hair.
A flash of light suddenly flooded the room, too bright to look into, Gerard felt his head spin and He was fainting. Falling.
“Frankie!” He tried to say. Not wanting to loose him again.
“Make it right.” Began to echo in his head and then nothing, blackness.



Gerard sat up with a start the sun streaming through the window. Lying beside him was Frankie. He was sound asleep, and he looked the same. He looked as if he were real.
He kissed his cheek and his eyes fluttered open.
“Gerard, I’m still here?” he said
“Yes, holy fuck! Yes.” He said
“Is this real?” Gerard said as he wiped the hair from in front of Frankie’s eyes.
“Well, all I know is I’m very hungry and I haven’t been hungry for 4 years!”
Gerard pulled him up from the bed and they walked downstairs together. Walking to the front door Gerard opened it. Frankie hesitated, he was afraid it would be like it always was. He had tried to walk through this door countless times, only to find himself back in his bedroom. What if it happened this time too, what if he wasn’t back.
Gerard shoved him through the door and the son hit his face as he stood in the yard. It was real, he was out, and he was alive.
“I love you.” He said laughing as the reality hit him.
“I love you too, and you will never leave me again.” Gerard said ruffling his hair playfully.
“No I never will.” They began walking towards Gerard’s apartment, their home.
Not even death could separate them.
 
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Part 2  
08:48pm 13/01/2008
 
 
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PART 2

He felt him when he was outside. He could feel him come into the house.
If he had had breath it would have caught in his throat. Watching him through the window he saw his black hair blowing around his face, his pale skin illuminated by the light of the moon.
Shivering from the chill he let his eyes rest on the boy sitting on the couch.
He couldn’t wrap his mind around why he could feel the cold.
Yes, he still felt everything. Even pain. Even his breathe.
He felt himself breath he could see himself, even his hands as he raised them in front of his face. Only he knew that he couldn’t see him, Gerard couldn’t feel him, not where he was on the couch. He squatted down to his knees leaning closer to him, he froze loosing himself in his eyes just as he had long ago, it seemed so long ago, in reality it had only been four years, four long agonizing years.
He longed to touch him.
“Please let him feel me. Please.” He said as he leaned closer and brushed his lips with his own. He felt the softness, and he could feel his breath on his cheek.
Gerard didn’t move, still captured by the book in his hand.
“Damn it, I’m right here! Look at me!” Frank screamed.
Gerard still never moved so much as an eyebrow.
Frank raced back up the stairs, tears streaming down his invisible cheeks.
In his room he picked up a hairbrush and began hitting the metal of the bed.
TAP TAP TAP, over and over.
He wasn’t sure if Gerard would hear it but the last time he was so emotional he was able to stop that stupid pimply kid from strumming his guitar.
The nerve! Picking up his guitar.
He was surprised that day that he could touch a person.
He had done more than touch him.
He felt bad later but that was his guitar! He wanted to kill him.
He was proud of himself that he controlled it enough not to kill him.
He wanted Gerard to hear him so he slung the brush into the wall, and it made a crashing sound as soon as it connected with the wall.
YES!
But did he hear it.
He went to the stairs and there he was looking up at him. Can he see me? No I don’t think he can.
“Gerard!” he said trying desperately to be heard.
“What the fuck?” Gerard said in a whisper.
Yes! He heard me! Oh god, now what?
He ran to his room and slammed the brush against the wall again and ran back to the landing of the stairs. Please, please come up here, please.
He could see that he was inching up the stairs, Oh GOD hes coming! he turned around his heart racing in his chest, thats what it felt like, even tho, he had no heart now, And he slipped back into his room.
Gerard walked into the room and frank watched as he walked slowly to the bed.. Tears began to slide down his cheeks as he picked up the pillow, Frank moved closer to him, touching his skin, he couldn’t help it, he missed him so much. Letting his face move closer he had the urge to kiss the back of his neck.
“I’m loosing it.” Gerard said Frank inhaled sharply.
He felt that! Oh my god he felt that! He was grinning like a mad man, standing beside the love of his life.

FLASHBACK:
The cold air ripped at his lungs as he took it in standing outside the window.
He knocked on the door rubbing his hands together, the early December weather was eating into him through his cloths. Snow blanketed everything in front of him.
He loved the snow. The door opened and Frank grinned at him.
“Hi” he said Gerard smiled at him as he walked into the room.
Frank jumped on him hugging him, but Gerard hesitated.
“No one is here, it’s just you and me.” He said smiling up at him. His heart leaped in his chest. He hugged him back laughing as they climbed the stairs letting go of the hug but allowing their hands to stay together.
“Dad is gone for the week, he left me alone for five whole days, he said now that I’m fifteen I can take care of myself!” Frank beamed at him.
“That’s awesome, Frankie, my mom wouldn’t let me stay home by myself, no way she would.” He said smiling.
“Well your mom loves you, she worries all the time.” Frank said giggling.
It had been only months ago, he had realized that he was in love with his best friend, in all of his 16 years Gerard had never felt so much for someone. He was shocked that Frankie felt it too. They had been together for two months as more than friends, but it was a secret, no one could know.
Frank moved to the bed and sat down beside Gerard. He slid his arm around Gerard’s waist. Gerard pulled him into him loving the heat it was creating. He bent down and found Frankie’s lips kissing him deeply. Frank shifted and let his hands slide through his hair. Moaning into his mouth. Frank slid his hands under Gerard’s shirt pulling it from his body. Gerard did the same pulling Frankie’s from his body too, unsnapping the snaps on his jeans he slid his hand in, gripping him softly he began to stroke him. Frankie had the urge to feel him tremble beneath him. He had only been down on him one time, not really sure of what to do, but doing to him what he thought would feel good.
He slid his pants off and let them fall to the floor. Gripping Gerard’s he pulled them free and took his underwear with them. Smiling he bit his lip. Kissing down Gerard’s chest he licked his skin and smiled when he moaned. Yes! I love his moan. He had taken him into his mouth. It was all they had done so far, afraid to do anything more. It was good enough, it felt so good when Gerard did this to him, and he had done it twice.
Taking him into his mouth he savored the trembles from Gerard’s body.
”Oh god Frankie, I love you so much.” Gerard said his head back on the pillow and his hands lacing in Frankie's hair.
“WHAT THE FUCK? You, you are, what the fuck are you? How, when, FRANK! Are you insane!? How the fuck?” His dad stood in the doorway his face bright red. Frank jumped back from Gerard his face a mask of fear.
“Dad, it’s not what it looks like.” Frank said knowing full well it was exactly what it looked like, but isn’t that what you were supposed to say? Gerard was shakily trying to fight his pants back on but they were winning and it wasn’t working like it should. Frank sat still holding the blanket around him. His eyes still like saucers staring at his fuming dad in the doorway. His dad was glaring at Gerard.
“Get the FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW! You piece of shit! Get out! get out! get out!” The words flew from his lips as if they were acid.
Gerard fled not knowing what else to do, he wanted to drag Frank with him, he knew that there was a beating coming. He wanted to save him, he just didn’t know how a 16 year old could stand up to that angry mass of hate.
When the sound of the door slamming filled the house he stormed over to his son and snatched him from the bed by his hair.
“Are you ignorant, or just stupid?” He said gritting his teeth.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, but dad, I love him.” He said tears falling down his cheeks
“Love! You Love him, What the fuck? I thought I raised you better than that. His hand connected with his son’s face rocking his entire body.
“You stupid fuck!" Anger ripped through him as he looked at his son in disgust.
Before he knew what he was doing his hands were around Frank’s neck and he was squeezing, all the frustration of having to care for him and do it alone, sense his no good mom had left them five years earlier. All the built up anger at her and at Frank were in his hands and he squeezed with all his might. Frankie made no noise he only struggled for about five minutes. Then he went limp. His dad continued to squeeze. He got himself under control some twenty minutes later but by then it was too late, by then Frankie was standing next to his father as the realization of what he had just done seeped into his father's eyes. He rested his gaze on Frankie’s motionless body, he felt for a pulse and there was none, he lay his ear next to his son’s mouth and felt nothing. He put his mouth on Frank's lifeless mouth and blew air into his lungs squeezing his eyes shut while he did it, he stopped and placed his ear on the boy's chest to see if he could feel anything.
“I’m so sorry.” He began to say. "I'm so very sorry!" He hugged his son while the sobs wracked his body. Frankie was standing next to him.
He was there when he called the police, he was there when they took his body and his dad away and he stayed there. He couldn’t leave.
 
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Part 1  
08:26pm 13/01/2008
 
 
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PART ONE

The house stood proud in its emptiness. As if it were daring someone to enter, to witness its secrets. Abandoned long ago it was the talk of every man woman and child, standing proud and beautiful behind the unkempt yard.
Weeds had grown around the doors and vines snaking up towards the large picture windows that looked out on the people as they passed.
In the dark haze of light it looked alive, as if it breathed and wanted to whisper.
The sun hung in the sky almost at the end of its decent toward the horizon.
A chill licked his neck as he gripped the bag he held tightly.
The breeze ruffled his black hair as if unseen fingers had caressed it.
He hesitated looking back at Evan.
“Tonight’s the night.” Evan said and grinned.
“Yea, it is.” Gerard said glancing at the house that waited for him to get up the nerve to walk inside and he sighed.
Sweat beaded on his brow even though the chill in the Evening was quite evident.
“You really are scared, you must believe all that shit about the boy and his dad.” Evan chuckled glancing at his shaking friend beside him.
“I’m not scared.” Gerard said trying to get his emotions in check.
“You’re shaking like a 6 year old.” Evan said emitting a high pitched giggle that made him glare at his friend.
“Its cold.” He said in a huff.
“Don’t worry, you will be a member of Alpha Chi Omega, by tomorrow, It’s a piece of cake.” He said and grinned.
“Just don’t go upstairs, you remember what happened two years ago when Jake was in there don’t you?”
“I remember that bullshit. I don’t believe a word of it, he’s so full of shit it’s spewing from his ears.” Gerard said.
“You weren’t there, you didn’t see his face, and I think it was real.”
“Come the fuck on, you think that there's no ghost boy upstairs punching people, that’s insane.” Gerard said. Rolling his eyes as he said it.
“I’m telling you he had bruises all over him.”
“I bet the dumb ass fell down the stairs.” he chuckled because he began to picture the boy falling end over end down the stairs.
“Whatever, he was freaked out anyway. You had better not get scared off, I want you in the frat with me, I don’t give a shit about how different you are. But Chip will be a problem even if you make it.”
“Screw him, he doesn’t bother me, you know I’m only doing this cause you asked, you had better be thankful.” Gerard said with a knowing smile.
Evan had been his friend throughout high school and his dad had been in the frat.
Evan hated it, more than anything he hated the guys in it, he hated all of it, but his dad would disown him if he hadn’t gotten in.
It was Evan’s bright idea that everything would be cool, all would be right if his best friend was in it to, he figured he could bare it then.
So that’s what he would do, for his friend, he would join the stupid Fraternity.
Gerard sighed turning toward the dark gloom of the house that stood before them.
He turned back to Evan,
“You know, you owe me right, you owe me huge!” He said.
“Yes I do, I owe you a lot. But like I said, don’t go upstairs, I didn’t on my night and I was fine, you might hear weird noises, but just don’t go up there.” He said and turned leaving Gerard and the house by themselves.
“I wont.” Gerard called to him.
“I know you, you will get curious, just leave it alone, trust me.” Evan said turning slightly back towards the house and his best friend, continuing his exit.
Gerard waved him off, all the crazy ghost talk was giving him chills again, but he forced his feet to take him to the basement window and crawl in.
The floor creaked when he his foot touched it.
He managed to get his entire body in and he slipped his hand into the bag and pulled out his flashlight.
Letting it circle the basement he smiled.
A thin layer of dust covered the surface but other than that it was quite homey.
Furniture littered the room, a very huge red and black sofa sat in the middle of the room, a blanket lying lazily on its cushions.
Obviously from the last boy that ran from this house screaming of ghost punches or maybe Evan himself.
Gerard smiled at the stories that he remembered being whispered that year.
Pulling the blanket from the couch he shook out the dust and draped it on the back of the couch, then picked each cushion from its resting place and shook them out one by one, Finally satisfied he sat down in the comfort of its pillows and pulled the blanket around him.
He dug in the bag and found what he was searching for. Pulling out the book he burrowed his back into the sofa getting comfortable.
Finding his bookmark he began to read.
“TAP TAP” a noise startled his eyes from the page. It was coming from directly above him. His eyes stayed glued to the spot in the ceiling for a few min. He shrugged it off and began to read again. It was going to be a long night. It was only 6 pm by then. An hour slipped by as he read the story in front of him.
“TAP TAP TAP TAP” on the ceiling again. His eyes again darted to the spot involuntarily. His brow creased. He shrugged it off again. Reverting his eyes back to the page. A loud crash above his head had him on his feet before he could think that he didn’t want to stand up. He was half way back on the cushion when a voice sounded from up the stair.
“Gerard,” It said. It wasn’t exactly a shout, but more like a shout and a moan combined.
“What the fuck?” He said in a whisper.
Another crash filled the house and rattled its frame.
“Damn it, if you guys are up there trying to scare me, it will not fuckin work!” he said yelling up the stairs. He had walked to them without thinking.
He walked up two steps and stopped craning his neck to see through the haze at the top.
He couldn’t see past the landing where the light from the moon had crept into the window.
He carefully took a third step up still concentrating on the top of the stairs, lightly touching the banister with his fingers.
No more sounds erupted for a full 20 min.
He stood there on the third step the whole time listening.
He quickly took 5 more of them convinced that it was the frat boys, the ones that Evan hated so much. It was probably them that scared the last boy too.
His confidence returning he climbed the remaining steps and stepped into the moonlight that shown through the window.
Darkness enveloped him as he stepped further into the house.
It looked like any house that you walk into, he was in a kitchen, he could just make out the sink and the stove, and dust covered everything.
Not a soul was in the kitchen as he slowly made his way across the room.
He was steadying himself trying to be ready if any of the guys began to do anything in hopes of scaring him.
It then occurred to him that he had left the flashlight on the table beside the sofa.
He silently scolded himself for forgetting it.
And crept slowly deeper into the room.
Someone giggled to his right, but he couldn’t see anyone.
“Who’s there?” He said A flash of someone hurrying down a hall caught his eye.
“You guys, I know its you, you can stop this now.”
He said following the person.
It was a guy for sure with dark hair, he couldn’t tell if it was brown or black but he knew it wasn’t blond or light.
A small guy, shorter than himself he was sure of that.
That didn’t really fit the description of any of them but he was still certain it was one of them, or someone they know.
He began walking down the hallway, and came to the door of a room.
He stepped inside and a single tear fell from his eye.
He hadn’t been in the house for ages it seemed. Everything was the same.
All the pictures on the mirror and even the guitar in the corner, everything was the same. The bed wasn’t made, as if the last person to be in it had been the one that owned it.
It was obvious why. None of the family cared about the boy or his father.
They were all scrambling to sell the house, to make money.
The house wouldn’t sell, because of the stories that were flying about it, and who would want a house where someone died anyway, not very many.
So they didn’t bother to clean it, or remove anything.
It was just here, empty, as empty as Gerard felt standing in that room.
No one knew that he had known the boy, and he never told anyone that they were best friends, well, more than that.
It was his fault that he was gone, his fault, no one else’s.
He stepped closer to the bed.
Running his fingers over the blanket and then the pillow.
He absentmindedly picked it up and wrapped his arms around it, squeezing it to his chest.
The same smell, the one he remembered from years ago invaded his nostrils. He knew that scent well.
A hand lightly touched his cheek and slid down to the back of his neck sending chills through him. He turned and no one was there. He felt hot breath on the back of his neck. Standing up with a start he looked around the room again.
He was alone.
“You’re loosing it.” He said to himself shaking his head.
The grandfather clock began to chime in the living room. Counting to 8 it settled into silence.
 
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My Chemical Radio 3-9-07  
01:03pm 10/03/2007
 
 
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My Chemical Radio Ray and Frank 3-9-07 just the talking between songs I cut out the songs. I didnt rip it only edited it. Its in MP3 Format.


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I MADE A MCR YAHOO MESENGER SKIN! YOU CAN USE IT!  
10:37pm 06/02/2007
 
 
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Credit me if you post this anywhere please:

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